Purge-atory

I purged for the first time today. Before now, I thought that I was above regurgitating my food. Oh, how wrong I’ve been.

After downing 8 jelly bellies, a cookie, and half a serving of soy milk, what in the world is a girl to do at 10 ‘o clock!?! I can’t realistically exercise at this time of night AND it’s not like those extra 200 calories were going to dissappear into thin air. So I tried it.

It felt good.

I mean like, “Where have you been all my life good!”

Sure, I can feel more stomach acid creeping up my throat as I type this… My mouth is cut in several places, too. It’s worth not having to digest that crap when I’ve already had over 700 cals today. Moving on, leaving this sad(as in pathetic) experience in the past, back to restricting.

Clothes *sigh*

I refuse to buy another article of clothing! Not until I’ve attained my perfect size 0.

A few reasons to be skinny.

1) Skinny jeans.

2)  Sexy pumps.

3) Mini skirts.

4) Sanity.

Today was great.

I did 520 kcals and 45 mins of intense areobics.

The scale is pissing me off, though! I won’t even repeat the mendacity here.

Early Morning Thinspiration

There goes my support. Thanks, Black people.

Turns out that we(Black people with eating disorders), are rare. Go figure. I guessed as much from watching the constant prodding of fat asses on T.V/magazines/the street, representative of the Black female. It’s disgusting. I mean, it’s not like there aren’t fat White women, don’t even get me started! It’s just that Black women are being told to be FAT! How screwed up is that?

I remember growing up and hearing that my booty wasn’t fat enough, hips wide enough, and just not being a good cushion for the pushin’

Well, F@#$ YOU!

I’ll pass on being a fat ass, thanks.

My Hit List.

Constantly being updated.

-Cake, of any fucking form.

-Dairy(cheese, milk, yogurt, etc.)

-JUICE(my arch enemy, this is dangerous! 120 cals in a juice box)

-Bread, because that shit is evil.

-Candy, naturally.

-Eggs.

The Skinny.

Age: 21 years young.
Height: 5’7
Weight: 120 lbs.

Weight Range

Low Weight: 128!
High Weight: 160!!!

As if I could ever adhere to such atrocities!

Goal weight

110lbs ‘-)

My Measurements

Chest: 32 B(I am not complaining)
Waist: 26 inches, size 2 jeans, long story short, I’m a fat ass.
Hips: 38 inches to match my fat waist.

Goal Measurements

Waist: 24 inches.
Hips: 36 inches.